The Thanksgiving Blues

Thanksgiving is rolling around, and I'm getting slightly nostalgic. I'm used to cooking my family's entire Thanksgiving meal, and since Korea is stupid and doesn't believe in ovens, I can't do anything! I can't cook stuffing; I can't bake a pie; I can't bake a turkey; and I can't even roast some sweet potatoes. And here I thought that I was the grinch and everything about the holiday's made me cranky. But no. I'm walking around here in Korea and I see Christmas lights and trees and winter wonderland decorations and I'm actually getting sad that I won't be with my family during the holidays. Now you might think that I'm weird for being upset that I'm sad about not spending time with my family, but it's just a lose/lose situation. I'm sad when I'm with my family; I'm sad without my family. I don't get it. Stupid holidays. 
Moving on from the holidays, because I'm getting sad again just thinking about it. 
Life here in Korea, besides Christmas decorations, is great. I really, genuinely love living here. It's actually somewhat scary thinking about moving back to the states because I feel like it'd be completely different, and significantly more stressful.
For some strange reason, I feel like I'm running out of time. There are so many things I want to do, so many things I want to see, so many goals I want to accomplish and I feel like I'm running out of time. That's another thing that I don't understand. I have to keep reminding myself that I'm still young and have plenty of time to do everything that I want to do. Anyway. That was my rant of the night.